Up until now.

Up Until Now… Up until now I allowed a disconnect between my heart and my head. Up until now I could feel the big ball of emotions; my reactions to others pulsating just outside of my gut. Some feelings I could discern others would flood me there were many and so strong, I could not … More Up until now.

Grief

Grief is love with no place to go, No place but to memories, or regrets. Regret of lost opportunities, memories now memorials. Grief is love with no place to go, No place but back into what might have been or to perhaps. Perhaps grief finds a home, A home in the joy and hope of … More Grief

Fires Burn

  Fires Burn, True hearts learn, Love shines through; hero’s! The crucible of the flames, burns the dross and clears the shame. Reality comes with the crisis, Facing choices that must be made. Second guessing comes later. In a moment our future is made. Fires Burn, True hearts learn, Love shines through it’s  flames.  

Trouble Forms Us.

Trouble Forms Us   Something’s formed in trouble, Something found no other place. Realizations, revelations, Change comes outside the easy space.   Comforts, safety, security are often sought, Too often for our own good. The good of trouble is seldom understood.   We lose ourselves in our comforts, Finding mostly idols there. We are numbed … More Trouble Forms Us.

Changed

  We can not forget for we are changed. We have met the irreducible reality of death, While yet young, impressionable and engaged. We lost innocence, lost dreams, lost youth; forever   Changed.   Friends now are dearer, Family is dearer, Life is dearer. Time matters more,   For we are changed.   Why have … More Changed

Son of Pumpkin Butt

Son of Pumpkin Butt You laugh? She raised a single eyebrow, inquisitively. She overweight- still inspiring  reflection. The superior English instructor, my mother.  “Your reach should exceed your grasp or what’s a heaven for.” Quoted she, quoting Browning the dead Englishmen of old. We have forgotten the greats, focusing rather on our selves and our … More Son of Pumpkin Butt

The circle game.

The Circle Game   . Running on our own, making our own way, being right not seeing what’s real. . We; defining our own truth, defining our own god, defining our own self. It’s endless, it’s meaningless, it’s a self centered fabrication; an illusion. . It’s the circle game. . Circling about our desires, circling  about … More The circle game.

A Prayer For Now

A prayer for Now Lead me Lord*, Now While there’s yet life and presence, Before the diminishing that is yesterday. Lead me not in the fantasy that is tomorrow, Lead me while it is yet today. Show forth your purpose and your will, Your presence and Spirit in me, through me now! Lead me Lord … More A Prayer For Now